Let me preface by saying that I have hit one of the natural low points of Peace Corps service. This post is going to be on the negative side but I think it´s only fair to take the downs with the ups. Besides, today, I´m pretty upset so I could be a lot more negative.
This week has been nuts. First off, I think my community guide thinks I´m trying to steal her boyfriend. I´m big enough to admit that this is my fault because I went to a cock fight with him and probably shouldn´t have, knowing how jealous she is. I should have respected that. I really wanted to speak some English though and see what cock fights are all about. (They are pretty horrible by the way but it was a good cultural experience. At least if the loser dies it gets eaten... more human than KFC.) We talked a while the next day and at first I got vibes that she was upset but as we talked I think she was more upset about things not going well with him in general and her daughter got hurt on a horse so she was worried about that.
Then yesterday I woke up with a 103 fever and the worst diarrhea of my life. When I get fevers I can´t really think straight so I just kept tossing in bed thinking I was going to die in Panama, a 7 hour flight and 7 hour bus ride from my friends and family. I went to the doctor which meant an almost three hour chiva ride with a fever trying not to poop myself. It was pretty brutal. Turns out it was just a bacterial infection and I will be fine.
NOW the icing on the mierda cake that has been these last few days is that I get a text message from one of my best friends in the region. Turns out he fell off a 50 foot cliff Sunday, doesn´t remember two days, and now is heading to the same hospital I just left. I really wish I were still there to offer support. I really wish it were easier to communicate so I could see how he´s doing. I really wish that these things weren´t happening all at once. Gracias a Dios he´s still alive. I just don´t know whether or not he´ll medically separated. I don´t know if he´s had any permanant damage. It would be heartbreaking to see him have to leave after all this. The most frustrating thing is that there is nothing anyone can do. It´s all up to luck now.
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Dear God! Just bumped into your post looking around for Panama blogs. If you need to take a break, come visit us in Pedasi: www.pedasihotel.com. I'm sure my sister Cailey would put you up at our casita for a bargain rate if you can't afford the hotelito. - Casey
ReplyDeleteKELSI! ¨the icing on the mierda cake¨ bahaha. hope you´re feeling better since this post! how far from santiago are you?? we should meet up soon if you can. feel free to call if you ever need to just vent! hang in there, kid.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear about your friend and the 'crappy' (no real pun intended) week you've had. Unfortunately life has a way of pushing us to the edge to see what we are made of, just have faith and hang in there. We are thinking of you here in Maryland (as always). Take care and remember, just breath.
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